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I just realized today, I have been blogging for a little over a month now.  Crazy.  Something that I had contemplated doing for years has finally happened and I am throughouly enjoying it, hoping you are as well.   This also got me thinking about the content I had covered thus far…I have hit on everything from style, fashion, makeup, to home décor…but one thing I have forgotten is me.  Telling you about me.  “Me” is not a person I really like to talk about.  I am a person that would much rather talk about you.  Most of the time I am not sure if I even like “me”.  We don’t enjoy talking about people we don’t like.  Yes, I am happy, and have a good life, but there are parts of “me” that I desperatly would like to change.  I think, truth be known, as women we really don’t like talking about ourselves.  We have learned to take the focus off of ourselves and put it elsewhere. 

But....I do want you to know about “me”.  The “me”  who is writing to you.  The “me” behind the blog.  The “me” who likes to hide behind a computer screen.   I want to know about you too, but first I will tell you a bit about “me”.

My full name is Stephanie Adele (Garrett) Harrison.  Many call me Steph. 

I am a Child of the King. 

I am a wife .  To Wade. 

I am a mother.  To Lexi & Maggie.  And to Mimi, Toni, Tilda, and Torunn.  And to anyone else that will let me mother them. 

I am an oldest daughter.  To Marty & Pam.

I am a sister.  To Elizabeth.  We are completely opposite, yet a lot alike.

I am an Aunt.  To the very sweetest nephew and nieces ever…Garrett, Ava, and Halle.  I cherish this title.

I am a granddaughter.  To Bill & Darlene Garrett.  To the late Frank & Georgia Neal (Lyle Woffard)

I am a niece.  To a whole bunch of strong and beautiful Aunts.

I am a cousin.  To a very large clan of cousins, which live all over the United States.  And I love more than anything being together with these crazy people.  Because they get “me”.

I am a youth leader.  And I love every minute I get with these kids.  I love teaching these kids about God’s love for them and seeing them live for Him.

I am hardest on myself. 

I strive for perfection.  In everything.  To the point of making myself and everyone else who works with me crazy.

I am a pleaser.  I want you to like me. 

I spend hours fretting over what people think of me.  I hate this part of “me”.

I talk before I think.  Which leads to many hurtful things being said from this tongue.  Ugh.

I don’t like saying “I’m sorry”.  Another part of “me” I hate.

I am very hard headed.  I come from a long line of hard headed people.  I believe it’s part of our success.

I am addicted to social media.  Yes, this is a problem.

I do not like watching TV…it bores me.

I have a clean house, but not because I like to clean.  Because I’m married to a clean nut. 

I lov(ed) watermelon.  Like I ate it for every meal for 2 solid months this summer.  No lie.

I love, love, love Diet Cokes.  But, I’ve pretty much went off of them Cold Turkey due to health junk.  Still get one now and then for “sanity” purposes.

I live for the beach.  My soul needs it.  I become a “meaner” without it.  I have been this way since I was a little girl.  I swear I am locationally misplaced in Louisville, IL.

I have a huge fear of losing people I love.

I’m a worrier.  Especially about my children.  And them being on the roads. 

I love Traditions.  And I hate when Traditions die or change.

I love Thanksgiving.  

I take a while to warm up to people and letting people in.

I hate letting go of people once I’ve let them in to my life.  Even if they’ve hurt me deeply. 

I don’t like enemies.  Even if you’ve hurt me, I will still be kind to you.  I will still wave at you.  I will forgive you eventually. 

I’m learning with age to not let just anyone sit at our family table.  People are mean and they will hurt you.  Very hard concept for me to get my head around. 

I spend a lot of time feeling like a failure. As a wife, mother, sister, daughter,  friend, Christian.

I do not like gossip, of any kind.  It only destroys people and lives. Never assume anything about anyone.

Yes, I am my biggest enemy.  If you think badly of me, don’t worry, I’ve already picked myself apart in that area and I’m trying  or have tried to work on it.

I live for Worship Music.  Worship for me is such a place of connecting with God and laying down my burdens.   I have made big life changes and God has revealed many things to me during my Worship time.

I completely over commit myself, pretty much all of the time.

I want to like exercise.  I want to be a runner.  But I don’t and I am not.

I want my Liver to work.  But it doesn’t like to most days.  I’m believing in a miracle.

I love the days my house cleaner comes.  My happiest days. 

I love clean sheets.  Almost obsessive about this. 

I love long, hot baths.

I love smelling good.

I love comfy beds that you sink into.

I love down pillows.

I love cozy blankets.

I am happiest at home.  With my husband, my girlies and their friends.

I love a house full of laughter.  I have to remind myself of this when I make things tense.

I have a tendency to make things tense.  Hate this too. 

I need my quiet time.  Very important. 

I can ride in my car in complete silence for hours.  This is when and where I think. 

I don’t like to cry.  I feel it shows weakness.  Lately, I’ve cried more than ever.  Guess I’m in a weak chapter of life.

I like to be the strong one who keeps everything together and moving forward. 

I desperately want my daughters to realize there is a big world out there…go explore.  Don’t settle.

I will always have a “mess” somewhere.  It’s me, it’s so me.  Whether it’s my closet floor, the chair where I lay my clothes, the garage where I have piles of things I am getting rid of, or around my desk at work.  Somewhere there is a "Steph Mess".

I am a whirlwind.  My mind goes 100 miles per hour at all times.  I am ALWAYS THINKING.  And thinking of many things at once.

I may seem as if I am not listening when you speak.  Well sadly, I probably am not.  You lost me at the first word.  My mind went somewhere else.  Ugh. 

I HATE mornings.  Only because I rarely ever sleep.  My best sleep begins at 6am….no clue why.  I have tried everything to alleviate this problem, but it never gets better… So if you ever need someone to talk to in the middle of the night, I’m your gal.

I used to be the “glass is half full” person.  Not sure what has happened but I often find myself the other way these days.  I guess life does this? 

I need women friends around me.  Not many.  Just a few.  Very good ones.  Ones that have my back no matter what.  Ones that I don’t always have to talk to, but when I do, we pick back up right where we left off.

I am a dreamer.  And I dream big.

I am a hopeless romantic.

I almost always listen to Christian radio, if I have anything on.  Love that music. Speaks deeply to me.

I love Christian Music Concerts too.  They fill me up.  Recharge my battery.

I am a procrastinator in the worst way.

I am a terrible packer.  I travel often and you would think I would get better at it.  Not so much. 

I love to travel and I need to travel.  Because I go 100 miles a minute from the moment my feet touch the floor until bed time, I need getaways.  My brain and body need a break.  It makes me a much happier wife, mom, co-worker, person.

I am a work in progress. 

God is molding me daily, more than ever.  He’s showing me His Presence in my life more than He ever has. Or He’s trying to get my attention.  Sometimes you have to do big things to get my attention.  Guess that’s what He is doing.   I would have to say, God has worked on “me” more in the last 6 months than he has in my whole life.  Excited to see where He is going with “Me”.

So there it is, “me”.  Now tell me about you…I’m serious.  Tell me 5 things about you.  It can be anything.  Just talk.

Love and Many Blessings,
Stephanie

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  • I have bought a few things from your site and just noticed last week you actually had a blog. I read several of your posts and today when I was reading a few of my favorite thought oh I am going to go over to Glamour Farms and read hers, wonder how the visit with the international student they took in’s visit went. I love your blog and you sharing your life. But I really enjoyed your blog today. I could agree with most of your statements…probably about 80% of them. Five things about me. I married a man with three kids and becoming a step mom is the HARDEST thing I have ever done. I have been in their life for eight years now and officially adopted them last year but it is still hard. They are all in high school. I have always worked, though after a year of marriage and trying to balance a very demanding job decided to stay home with the kids. I am working part time right now, kids are all in high school. Trying to figure out what God has in store for me next. My mind wanders A LOT! While people are talking, the movies, I don’t like watching tv, and often at church too…this is anonymous isn’t it. So embarassed to admit. I always have amess somewhere and the best two days of my month are when the cleaning ladies come. If you only knew how much work if was for me to get the house ready before they come. I told my husband it is a good thing they come every two weeks, cause the house would be a mess if I didn’t need to pull it together every once in a while. Thanks for sharing about yourself.

    Kim on

  • A few things about me…I have three children, two boys 18 & 6 (yes, he was planned! Probably more planned than the others! Lol) and a daughter who is 19. They all have very different personalities but they are my reason for living. Their joy fills my soul! I am an RN, which was a career I pursued later in life. I graduated nursing school at age 40! I worked in a hospital and then found my true calling working as a Hospice Nurse. One day in November of 2013, my life changed forever. I woke up to joint pain and stiffness like I had never experienced. It continued to worsen and was accompanied by extreme fatigue. I would work all day, eat dinner, and go to bed at 7pm. I eventually had to give up a job I loved. I finally saw an excellent doctor at a University hospital who diagnosed me with Lupus. Luckily, my symptoms have improved some with the right combination of meds. The hard part is that I miss the “old” me. I was always busy, busy, busy. Now, my disease determines my level of activity from day to day. Frustrating, but grateful for the life I Have. My husband is a 911 Coordinator for our county, and he too will soon be an RN. He graduates in May of 2016.
    I am a girly girl, I love to be pampered-massages and mani-pedi’s are some of my faves!
    I have a hilarious younger brother who always knows how to make a bad day turn good with his positivity and silliness!
    We are surrounded by amazing family(literally! Great grandma is directly across the street and my in-laws live next to her! It makes for lots of unscheduled get together a and fun times :)
    I am working to lose the weight I gained related to the medications I take to reduce inflammation and pain. Everyday I look forward to the new arrivals and outfit posts. I save screenshots as inspiration and love to splurge on great stuff whenever out budget allows!

    Traci Rose on

  • I really enjoy reading your blog. I always read it. Tonight’s was very different. Vulnerable. Extremely transparent. Thank you for sharing. I could relate to it in so many ways. I am a single mom of two amazing children and I 100% support them on my own. Their “bio-dad” does not see them at all or offer any support financially and honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love the fact that I can do it all on my own. Well, not on my own, God is the only reason I have succeeded. I give Him all of the glory!! He has turned my mess into a message and He will forever be my center. My rock. He rescued me from a severely abusive marriage and I felt as if life had no point at all. That I was worthless. Everything I owned from my whole life and all my children’s things were gone. My ex sold them all and threw away the rest. We started over from sleeping on my parents floor to having our own place and now, I’m climbing the corporate ladder. Never in a million years did I see my life turning out this way but God always makes a way. We are now happy,safe and extremely blessed.

    Stephanie Roberts on

  • I really enjoy reading your blog. I always read it. Tonight’s was very different. Vulnerable. Extremely transparent. Thank you for sharing. I could relate to it in so many ways. I am a single mom of two amazing children and I 100% support them on my own. Their “bio-dad” does not see them at all or offer any support financially and honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love the fact that I can do it all on my own. Well, not on my own, God is the only reason I have succeeded. I give Him all of the glory!! He has turned my mess into a message and He will forever be my center. My rock. He rescued me from a severely abusive marriage and I felt as if life had no point at all. That I was worthless. Everything I owned from my whole life and all my children’s things were gone. My ex sold them all and threw away the rest. We started over from sleeping on my parents floor to having our own place and now, I’m climbing the corporate ladder. Never in a million years did I see my life turning out this way but God always makes a way. We are now happy,safe and extremely blessed.

    Stephanie Roberts on

  • 1. Thanks for writing this one! I feel the same way about most all of these topics! It’s so nice to no I’m not the only one. 2. I too would love to start running. Or any exercise besides just chasing a one year old!!! Lol. 3. I have learned lots these last few months but still need to slow down even more and enjoy life without all the stress and worries!!!! 4. I love traveling anywhere——concerts, shopping, vacations!!! Love it all. However, I also enjoy staying at home as well with my 3 kiddos and chad. I just wish while at home I could relax and not stress Over all the “chores” I should be doing!!! 5. Live love and sparkle!!!! Each day is another day given to you by God! No matter how much hurt I have Im not gonna give up! My mom would want it no other way! Thanks again for sharing this! Love it!!! Oh and #6!!!!! My secret dream is to be as good as you girls and open up Glamour Farms #2!!!! Lol.

    Brandie Beckham on


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